No Goodbyes, Just See You Again :)

2:13:00 PM

Hello, readers!
I'm back after a three-days hiatus. Since this post is going to be super special, I'm gonna do it in Indonesia. To those of you who aren't familiar with the language, you may have to skip this post. But I will still use some English:)

Here you go...
“Remember me and smile, for it's better to forget than to remember me and cry.” -Dr. Seuss.
Sebelum mengawali tulisan ini, saya hanya mau bilang bahwa semua hal pasti ada ujungnya. Tidak ada hal yang abadi kecuali Tuhan. Suatu saat di depan nanti, pasti akan a6da perpisahan dan pertemuan-pertemuan baru. Bisa saja di antara pertemuan itu adalah pertemuan terakhir atau sekadar temu kangen. Apapun itu, life goes on no matter how hard it is to accept the goodbye's.

My cherries on top<3
Tanggal 22 April, tepat sehari setelah Hari Kartini (Selamat Hari Kartini :)), teman-teman satu angkatan 2016 dari SMA Negeri 1 Bekasi berangkat menuju Lembang.We stopped at Saung Angklung Udjo to watch an amazing authentic Angklung performance from SAU and stayed until Jum'at prayer. Tujuannya untuk perpisahan dan jalan-jalan terakhir. Awalnya, semua rasanya biasa-biasa saja. It was just another get together, another road trip until it was a few hours before sunset. The thought changed.

I was one of the five hosts for our graduation ceremony. Kita berlima, dua perempuan dan tiga laki-laki, bakal berdiri sepanjang malam untuk memandu acara sebagai MC. I was thrilled and nervous, maybe so were the rest of us. Kita gladi bersih, siap-siap, lalu acara dimulai.

It was... It was amazing yet saddening. Why? Karena mungkin acara ini bakal jadi acara terakhir untuk para senior kelas 12. This was it, this was the end. I let myself absorbed the thoughts until every guest finally entered the ballroom.
Everyone was looking prettier than the usual. All the guys wore tuxedos which complimented their figures. Their hair were combed in the right way, they were all tidier than the usual. The girls wore make-up. Every bit of jewelry complimented their features and every touch of blush and lipstick accentuated their faces. Everyone looked amazing and I didn't just say that because of all the make-up and dress-up but because they really did look amazing.
Kita memulai acara dengan beberapa slideshow yang mempertontonkan beberapa foto aib kita. We shared a good laugh that echoed inside the huge and spacey ballroom. Semua tempat duduk sudah terisi dan para MC sudah stand-by di samping panggung. I was about to have a panic attack when suddenly I saw their faces, the faces of my friends. The faces of everyone that fought the same battle I did for the past three years. And soon enough I was relieved.


Acara pun dimulai...


As usual, sambutan-sambutan dan tilawah pembukaan disampaikan. Boredom filled the room but just like any other event, the beginning is always spent on the most boring stuff yet somehow it's always the most important part of it all...
The choir performed their final song. Lagu pertama adalah Ondel-ondel karena kami menggunakan adat Betawi. Kemudian, mereka pun menyanyikan lagu kedua.

If We Hold On Together by Diana Ross.


By the time the song ended, I was so close to tears. The lyrics were hitting me as if a huge wrecking ball was swinging across the room purposely to crunch my stomach. It was really--REALLY--sad to think that in just days, well maybe months, we won't be seeing each other anymore.

Lalu, upacara adat. Everyone was already roaming around feeling more and more bored until the ceremony started. Musik tradisional mengisi ruangan. Everyone stood up from their seats, eager to see what was happening on stage. As one of the hosts, I had the privilege to watch all of those from the front. I missed a few minutes of it because my partner asked me to accompany her to the bathroom. I did and came back not long after.
Saya menonton dan mengikuti upacaranya. Semua dipentaskan oleh rekan-rekan seangkatan. It was entertaining yet also touchy because seeing their laughter for a few minutes bring back so many memories. It was our final show and we had our absolute fun together and I was beyond happy.


Acara pembukaan berjalan lancar hingga doa. Kemudian, mood berubah setelah doa. Semua terlihat lebih relaks dan nyaman, begitu juga MC. Saatnya kami berimprovisasi untuk memandu acara non-formal atau acara hiburan.

Penampilan pertama diisi oleh Oldkustik. Band akustik yang berisi tiga orang cowok dan satu personil tambahan untuk memainkan cajon ini membawakan dua lagu lawas dari Guns N Roses yaitu Patience dan Don't Cry. Both of the performances were great. Plus, one of my best friend who was the lead singer of the acoustic band was performing. I was excited to see him perform and even more pleased when he nailed it.
Acara hiburan dibuka dengan dua band akustik yang isinya laki-laki semua. Satu di antara dua itu sudah tampil, maka giliran band satu lagi yang menyumbangkan lagu. Ada Unproject yang membawakan lagu mash-up Canon dan theme song Doraemon. Everyone was having a great time listening to their little rendition of both songs. We sang along to the chorus of Doraemon because everyone was taken back, way back to their childhood when they played that song.

Aleksix:)
Unproject turun dari panggung diekori dengan tepuk tangan yang sangat meriah dari para hadirin. Baik rekan-rekan seangkatan maupun dewan guru dan perwakilan komite serta dinas pendidikan juga terlihat menikmati penampilan Unproject.
Kemudian, tibalah penampilan dari para guru. Long story short, semua orang berjoget di tengah ruangan menikmati pertunjukkan yang dibawakan oleh guru-guru kami. The performance was so secretive even the hosts were surprised to see them on stage. So, since it was secretive and exclusive I may say, I'd rather keep the footage to myself because my mom who is a part of the committees was there recording every bit of the whole entire graduation party.

To be honest, after the teachers had performed their part, we were still knackered because we danced it all out in the middle of the ballroom. Every person who joined the dance was out of breath and not a single soul felt miserable for a few minutes. It was just fun and relaxing to let all the stress of senior year out in the open.


Penampilan berikutnya diisi oleh Changxiband. A band consists of three singers, two guitarists, and a person on the cajon. Mereka menyanyikan lagu Bahagia dari GAC dan sama bahagianya dengan judul lagu itu, saya senang melihat lagi-lagi salah satu sahabat baik saya tampil di atas panggung. They were amazing and I was more than happy to see them nailing every note.


Sebelum penampilan terakhir, ada Aleksix yang ikut memeriahkan panggung. Band dari kelas XII MIPA 6, notabene kelas saya. Dua MC yang sedang bertugas harus izin sebentar untuk tampil di atas panggung. Kami dipersembahkan oleh rekan MC lain dan sama seperti Changxiband, we pulled off a great show. Everyone was singing along and I felt the happiest.
And from that moment on, everything started to kick in. The realization of this being our last day together hit me. Hard. In every part of my body. I couldn't stand it. Plus, we were about to watch our senior year film presented by our Yearbook Committees. The feelings grew inside me and I was about to burst out in tears when the film started.
One of my closest friends edited the video and it turned out amazing. It brought some people to tears and since I stood still in the middle of the stage, I could see who was crying and who was pulling out tissues from their handbags. I, alone, cried watching it because it was so good although it was just a brief sneak peek. It was it. Finally, I took in the realization and kind of dealt with it for the rest of the party.

Everyone stayed in their place after the film finished. We were still surprised and touched by every scene of the movie. Both the seniors and the hosts were on the edge of breaking into such emotional moments. We were all lost in our thoughts. But due to professionalism, we continued with our smiles signaling that we could hold it just a bit longer. At least until after the show. And we did.

Class of XII MIPA 6, GOLD'16
Kita melanjutkan acara dan sekaligus menutup acara dengan penampilan dari Blacklist & Beat Party. Dance group dan perkumpulan DJ dari angkatan kami mempersembahkan penampilan mereka yang bikin seluruh gedung pecah. I danced to the beat and so did everyone. Our teachers and the committees were a bit taken back but we, kids, didn't care. We had our moments and at that last performance, we finally felt as if we were holding hands dancing together, enjoying our very last months together. I would've lost it if it weren't because of the fun.



As usual, we ended things with photo shoots. Everyone was busy running around the ballroom taking selfies with everyone else. I was one of them, too. I forgot I was wearing this super high-heeled shoes that by the time I went back to my room it had crushed both of my feet. We took several pictures.



People were searching for their classmates, their seat-mates, their boyfriends, their girlfriends, their cliques. Every student was struggling to find the people who made their senior year felt amazing. I was too. I was being pulled by some people to take a picture even though the pain I felt from the shoes I wore was starting to take its toll on me. I took some pictures with random people and shook hands with my grade 11 classmates. I was enjoying every moment because in my head I thought it was gonna be the last.


EXTENSION, XII MIPA 6. -1.
Brother-from-different-mothers-and-fathers:)
1DERLUST; Est. 2014<3
Kami baru kembali ke kamar masing-masing sekitar pukul 1 pagi. Semua melepas jas dan kemeja serta kebaya masing-masing. Beberapa mandi dan keramas. Tapi, saya tidak karena dingin dan perut kosong rentan masuk angin. I couldn't sleep so I waited.
We were given midnight snacks. I went downstairs and to my surprise, I found several of my friends still sitting around the coffee table downstairs. I joined them. One of them cooked me some instant noodle and he was so nice. I finished the food and came back to my room only to find some people pranking other people. The fun escalated very quick. They climbed on to the windows just to shock everyone who was already asleep. Our phone was bombarded with prank calls to the point where it got annoying. I ended up sleeping in the room next to mine. Soon enough, everything calmed down and we woke up just fine the next morning.

Lembang itu kota yang dingin. Tapi, bukan berarti tidak mandi. Saya mandi pagi, menikmati dinginnya air Lembang sambil melepas sisa-sisa lelah dari acara tadi malam. I took a good 30 minutes shower before everyone woke up. They complained me for taking that long but what the heck. When a girl needs a shower, she needs a good half-hour of that. Don't judge.
We continued the trip to Kawah Putih. It was a one and a half-hour drive from Lembang. All of us fell asleep in the bus because the exhaustion from last night still lingered on our bodies. And soon enough we arrived.

Kawah Putih.

Kawah Putih was beautiful. It has this aquamarine color with some touches of white rocks and dark brown branches every five meters. Although the scenery was breathtaking the smell was horrific. Since it was a sulfur crater, it smelled like rotten eggs. The whole place smelled bad and if it wasn't because of the presence of my beloved friends, I would've turned down the offer to go down there.
Kita foto-foto dan menikmati kabut yang perlahan turun. Saya punya firasat bahwa beberapa menit lagi akan hujan dan firasat saya tidak meleset sedikit pun. Saat sedang asyik mendokumentasikan momen-momen bersama teman-teman terdekat saya, hujan pun turun. Awalnya hanya rintik-rintik biasa, lama-lama menjadi hujan deras.

I was one of those people who can't bear the first drop of rain. It will definitely make my head spin and sure enough that rain did. After it stopped, I felt a massive pain in my head and since the raindrop was sort of acidic due to the sulfur, it itched my skin. I was so sensitive to the reaction and soon enough I felt so uncomfortable.
Tidak lama setelah semua peserta kembali, kamu pun akhirnya pulang.

XII MIPA 6 with homeroom teacher<3
This is where it gets emotional. Our way home was fun at first. Everyone sang along to the music that was played on the bus. We had so much fun laughing at each other's silliness until it was just a couple of kilos away from our stop.

Ketua kelas kami berdiri di antara tempat duduk di bus. Tadinya, ia sudah berusaha tegar untuk tidak menangis. Lagi pula ia laki-laki. Tapi, saya tahu laki-laki pun punya perasaan dan tidak ada manusia yang tidak sedih jika harus mengucapkan salam perpisahan kepada sahabat-sahabatnya sendiri. Dan ia pun melakukannya.
Semua terharu dan menangis sejadi-jadinya. Termasuk saya dan beberapa teman lain. The fun died down and turned into a very emotional moment. Kita semua mengingat kembali satu tahun terakhir. Tahun yang benar-benar bahagia buat kami. Tahun yang penuh dengan suka cita dan duka cita. Tahun yang tanpa mereka, saya mungkin tidak akan berhasil melewati masa-masa senior di SMA. Perlahan-lahan semuanya mulai tenang dan kami pun sampai.

Whoa...
This is long. I was gonna split this up into two posts but I didn't feel appropriate to do it. So yeah.

Goodbyes hurt like hell. Especially being a senior in high school. Saying farewell to your lads and best friends is hard. Mengucapkan selamat tinggal dan mendoakan mereka agar sukses bukanlah hal yang mudah. Karena bisa jadi perjalanan ke Lembang ini adalah perjalanan terakhir. Bisa jadi ini adalah kali terakhir kami benar-benar berkumpul bahkan itupun tidak lengkap. Tidak ada yang tahu siapa akan jadi apa nantinya dan tidak ada yang bisa memprediksi siapa yang akan pergi lebih dulu atau sukses lebih dulu. Semua sudah berjalan masing-masing, menenteng takdir masing-masing, sudah tidak ada lagi seragam maupun upacara bendera setiap Senin pagi. Tidak ada lagi teman satu meja yang rela berbagi hasil PR matematika. Tidak ada lagi momen-momen gila di kelas. Mulai saat ini, semua masing-masing. Semua berjalan menuju mimpinya masing-masing. Tidak ada lagi bahu-membahu karena memang belum tentu teman sebangku mempunya mimpi yang sama dan kalaupun iya, maka ia adalah pesaing kita. So, it was it. This was the end. The end of 12 years wearing uniforms. The end of studying in a class of 34 students. The end of being young and the start of becoming a true adult. This is it. You either move on or get stuck.

But saying goodbyes is harsh. It's as if we won't be seeing each other ever again. Well, although it may happen, but still goodbyes aren't that appropriate. So, maybe it's not goodbye just yet. It's more of a "See you again" or "See you when you're on top" or something like "See you later in life". Yes, nobody knows if we're gonna see each other again. Even I have no clue if I'm able to come to your get-together invitation. But if you ever want to meet up soon in life, I will come. Because those memories we had for the past three years are too precious to just forget like that. I want to see all of you on top. I want to be able to reunite when we all have succeeded in our fields. I want to see positive changes in all of you. I'm eager to find out who's marrying who. Kalian itu terbaik di antara yang terbaik. Kalian teman-teman yang mengisi kekosongan masa-masa kelas 12 saya. Kalian juga yang memperbaiki masa-masa sulit saya. Kalian yang entah bagaimana berhasil membuat saya meneteskan airmata karena untuk pertama kalinya, saya sadar bahwa life is literally happening once. There's no restart button, there's no rewind, not even a pause button. Kalian yang berhasil membantu saya untuk tetap bisa menempuh beberapa tahun terakhir melewati segala macam rintangan. It was not easy for each and every one of us, it was not easy for me. Mengucapkan sampai jumpa lagi dan selamat tinggal adalah hal tersulit bagi saya karena siapa yang tidak sedih ketika harus berpisah dengan sahabat-sahabat terbaiknya, dengan keluarganya, dengan teman-teman seperjuangannya?

Saya hanya berharap, semoga masa depan kita sama-sama cerah. Semoga siapapun yang sukses lebih dulu tidak melupakan satu sama lain, tidak melupakan saya, tidak melupakan teman-teman yang lain. Semoga tetap hangat di ingatan kalian memori-memori tentang kelucuan dan keluguan kita semua. Kecil kemungkinan saya akan menemukan sahabat-sahabat seperti kalian di masa kuliah nanti, maupun di masa depan nanti. Karena itulah kalian adalah beberapa dari yang teramat baik. Semoga perpisahan ini menjadi awal bagi kita semua untuk menata kehidupan yang lebih menyenangkan dan menegangkan. Semoga kelak, saya bisa melihat dan merasakan sendiri kesuksesan kita bersama. I love you guys so much and you are the best thing God has ever blessed me with. Thank you for the last three years and good luck, GOLD'16. Good luck, Extension'16. Good luck, Wanderlust<3 Good luck, class of 2016:) See all of you on top:)
"There are no goodbyes for us. Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart." -Mahatma Gandhi.
This is for you, GOLD'16...

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